This blog probably has been dead for long.

Still deciding whether should I keep this blog. :) Looking back my last posts I didnt know my posts were so encouraging (at least to me). 

Was the fire in me burning these past few months? Answer, no.

One thing is, God showed me favor in many areas of my life. Thanks bros for suggesting me to pray this kind of prayers.

But today is definitely a brand new day I've promised God. Though not been having enough sleep yesterday but God showed me His goodness and reminded me of His awesome love.

Focus: on God alone. One thing I'm disappointed in myself is to SHOW grace to people from my own righteousness. Tough, it totally can't last throughout the day. There's many things that I'm still struggling in flesh, need to really shake it off.

One thing I'm glad is, I'm being molded everyday. I think God is interesting to put me in drama-mama situations certain times. I wanna be real! :)

Yes got baptised on Valentines' Day. Wonderful gift from God and declaring to the world that I am the daughter of His! Yeah! Got many many presents. :p Can I get baptise again?

I wanna be a nut that tightens bolt. Strengthening and impacting lives.

True encourager way to go! Woohoo! I will not let the fire turn lukewarm. Hallelujah!


And I will still continue to dance for God no matter how tired it takes with a humble heart.

Ehhh, I'm always random.

Indeed as said by Matthew, more things are coming and waiting for me to jump over the hurdles in my life.

Haha... Gotta rejoice in troubles yeah. Cause I know the great treasures I will be having in Heaven. :D

One thing I learnt today as I was doing my QT in LRT. To do certain things in secret. :)

Matt 6:3-4, 'But when you give to the needy, do not let your left hand know what your right hand is doing, so that your giving may be done in secret. Then your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you.'

At the same Matthew Chapter 6, at verse 6, it also says 'But when you pray, go into your room, close the door and pray to your Father, who is unseen. Then your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you.'

Sometimes, I tend to do things for human to see. Ok, most of the times I can say. I am sure that if I do that, I already have been rewarded in full on earth.

Why must I always try ways to get people to acknowledge the things I do all the time? What's my reward in heaven if I do that? Zzz.

I've been trying to remind myself all the time to serve Him with all my heart. And same thing, if I do that, my rewards in Heaven will be great cause it is the Lord Christ I am serving (Colossians 3:3-4).

I know that I don't belong to here at all. Physically yes, spiritually no.

I don't want to live by the flesh. But majority of the times I do. Sorry Father.

And how often do we recognise that the things we do, He is always watching. I myself always forget that he is watching me when I am doing things  that are 'when no one's looking' stuff. And I am doing most of the time and even I myself don't realise it.

I am a saint who sins. And this is when Jesus saves people who sins (be it saints or sinners). God loves us that's why He saves. God loves us that's why Jesus, His beloved son died for us so our sins will be forgiven.

I am awaiting for you Lord Jesus! :D 

 

He he, my birthday tomorrow! Neh neh poo poo.

 

I almost fall into temptation.

Must say that the devil is trying to bring me down all the time. In fact, he is bringing everyone down. I am glad enough to know that I've realised it.

Been feeling so empty and lost and don't know where I am heading to. But God woke me up and showed me that I am straying away these few days, few nights.

It is true that everyday is a brand new day. Today you can be on fire for Him. But when the next day you will come to realise, why did the fire in you have died down?

Heak heak heak.

If I were to talk about what I am feeling exactly now I think will make it worse. 

Yes, my life is full of troubles. But my troubles have to be filled with joy and soon willingly to be filled with joy by His grace. :)

May I be more disciplined to set aside time for Him. (actually it is not a very difficult thing to do, to think of it, majority of the time we spend are on worthless stuff :-/) Hor?




I am playing Lazurus. Hehe interesting but with the most scripts role. :- /


 

Tell you, it was seriously crazy. So many of shocking news keep bombarding me.

Yesterday just attended a funeral wake. It has been so long since I attended one and yesterday's experience was interesting enough. I truly see the ugly side of the world. The person who passed away was my dad's ex-colleague. He strangled himself/someone strangled him using a cable tie. I saw the face of the decease and felt a heavy heart to pray for the people present over there. Seeing the way they talk, their actions burdened me.

Sharing table with us were the decease's colleagues (which includes my dad, me and my mom just wanna tag along). Their conversations were all about money, cars, facial, appearances. My dad's colleagues are all of managerial level, driving big cars. As for my dad, he used to be a lorry driver in that company. I was observing from behind and saw my beloved dad was making an effort to join in the conversation. The moment he opened his mouth, disapproving and frowning eyes from his managerial level colleagues began to greet him. It doesn't happen only once, but everytime when my dad commented. From there I learnt that, it is only when you have the money and position, people then will lend their ears to you and entertain you. ZZZ. An ugly world I am in now. I don't seriously blame this people. Just think that how cunning can a devil be. Putting worthless priorities in human's life, and pushing us to show no love to one another.

Truly the world needs love. Not money, not fame, not hot girls, not handsome boys, not big cars, not big houses, not pretty clothes, not expensive meals, not killer heels, not nice body, not cool hair style, not hip dance moves, not competing of talents, not being a workaholic and the list will go on and on. But LOVE.

How often do you tell yourself to love others? I truly admit that it is very hard to love each and everyone - People who backstab you, people who look down on you.. Still, we are called to love. 

Love, love, love, love. The word 'love' is floating everywhere and often hears it come out from people's mouth so freely. Does it still carry anymore meaning nowadays in the world? 
  
I guessed I still have to love everyone since He says so. :) God help me to love people like how you love me.

1 John 4:19 - 21 'We love because He first loved us. If anyone says, 'I love God,' yet hates his brother, he is a liar. For anyone who does not love his brother, whom he has seen, cannot love God, whom he has not seen. And He has given us this command: Whoever loves God must also love His brother.' Amen!

Ever since Saturday and Sunday. I just realised that I don't exactly live by the Spirit at all! I don't actually seek God in EVERYTHING I do. And I do realise that I am doing things on my own flesh majority of the time! I only seek Him when I truly need help (when most of the time I do). And I find it hard to pray to Him EVERYTIME!

I believed God has opened my eyes these few days. I began to be more watchful of things I do and to be more aware of whether I am seeking Him all the time. I've find it difficult to offer a tithe to Him and I didn't know by not doing so, I am actually robbing Him (see Malachi 3:6 to 18)! Really horrible. Thank God for convicting me.
 
Thank God for giving me wisdom at work.

I really love my family. Especially my dad. Now then I realise that I've never really love my dad so much and appreciate Him. I used to hate my family. But now, no matter what kind of hardships that all of us will be facing, I am more than happy to go through with them together. I seriously did not worry about anything cause I know God will provide.


Take a look at this verse, really amen to that. Matthew 6:33 and 34 'But seek first His kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.'

Went out with my dearest Weiling on Tuesday, just before Hari Raya. I thought it was kinda shiok cause I've not been to town for so so long. I am always hanging around at Lot one and Bukit Panjang Plaza. Think I am too lazy to travel all the way to Town to get tempted. Heak Heak. Really thank God that He is stopping me to fall for shopping and I can proudly say that I am controlling it.. KINDA well (not very well).

Just feel kinda bad cos I have been suan-ing her. Sorry girl. :(

 

Yeah we ate at this place call Waruku (I think). The food there is nice. But I myself is not really a foodie so I am fine to eat anything as long as it tastes ok. I enjoyed taking ugly photos and pretty photos. Not afraid to show people my ugly sight and not embarrassed to show people my pretty sight as well. I used to get so agitated when people have my ugly photos and comment about it. As for now, when I am ugly, I still think I look great because God told me so.

Why do some of us get so image cautious?

I used to have that too and think that I am super lousy and ciu in the world. Whatever thing I do are always disapproving in peoples' eyes. I felt so ostracised and finding so hard to please people certain times. And as the world thinks that image is more important than one's heart, I found that I must be pretty enough to hang out with certain groups of cool and hip people. Those people who are not as good-looking should never be seen with me in streets as they will spoil my image (zzz. I hate the old Angeline). People who have known me long enough knows that I am always popular among certain groups of people (those group of people are also like my old me, very jialat one)

I am super super glad that I've found my Rock and Savior. If not I would not be who I am today. I have truly went through alot in life and sometimes when I think back, I still get so disgusted and truly can't believe my dispicable actions. Yeah. But God has forgiven me and He is always forgiving me. He gives me grace in abundance and all the more I should be grateful to Him and enjoy this priviledge of grace and mercy. God is something like err B*dyshop membership card (since I only join B*dy Shop as a member). He open doors of priviledges and discounts and wants me (and also us) to enjoy all these with just having faith and spiritual discipline as a price. Ain't He great? Who else can be like Him?  

Hallelujah! Just knew from Si'er and Sab that Michelle has been saved! Hehe. And I will be her mentor soon....!!! I am so excited to guide her through iconstruct. Really thank God for giving me this opportunity to help a person grow and giving me more reason to grow together with her as well. Yes yes! I can do it one with Him helping me.

Gotta go have fellowship with the staff... One last picture....

I just decided to switch to Livejournal cause I prefer it to be simple and not so complicated. Not very sure whether is it user friendly. Nonetheless it doesn't really matter much to me.

I just need a place whereby I can post peacefully. I just feel a little insecure at Blogspot. Hee hee

Not really affected by the persecutions anyway.

F1 was fantastic yesterday! I don't really sit down and watch F1 in TV before. Yesterday was my first time and I am rather curious that the silver car that are supposed to save the buang cars to be on track? They are like blocking the other racers because they were driving kinda slow. Correct me if I am wrong. Hee.

Yeah, life has been great but tiring. And I really need to praise Hallelujah to the Lord! Yesterday was really touching lives of many and I was praying so so hard during the whole skit and drama. My mom was sitting beside me and I am so glad that she made an effort to know who are the ones who took part in the Outreach.

God is really working in the sanctuary. All thanks to everyone's effort in making all these possible. Not to forget the prayers (the most powerful weapon) that everyone has played a part in praying for the Outreach.

I am beginning to love dance. I seriously have to learn how to assert authority and I do not really know how to put it in a tactful way. I am glad that God gave me Pam to help me and to absorb as much tactic from her as possible. There are times I think dancing the same steps over and over again is kinda boring. Perhaps those steps are too easy for me? Anyway that's a very negative thinking and I have to set my heart right. Dance for Him! Yeah! I have the desire to bring up my bros and sis in knowing dance more.

Dance is not just about the actions and making every steps so correct. For the past few months, I've believed that if you are so good at dance and yet don't do it with a correct heart, it does not really carry a meaning at all. Most importantly, you have to set a correct mindset and knowing the purpose of dancing, from there you move on, your passion will start to grow and in time to come! You realised that God has given you this gift to glorify Him!

I can truly dare to declare that I am trying to love each and everyone in my Family. Sometimes I think I don't love them much enough. Let me not run away. God will guide me through. For God He Himself is love.

Let me not be like the Isralites whom whine and grumble about the trials they faced the other time. If possible I would like to be named Angeline Moses. But think will be kinda weird.

Eddy suggested that Esther sounds nice. I wanted to be named Esther as well but Arlene has that. Think I shouldn't let it bother me. See what God has for me then! :)

Pslam 23:4 'Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me.' A verse that convinces me at all times.

Esther?